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Revealing Secrets – 45 Year Old Guy with Trichotillomania & How I Faked Illness & Had Two Operations

Revealing Secrets – 45 Year Old Guy with Trichotillomania & How I Faked Illness & Had Two Operations

So basically, I am now 45 years old and I have had Trichotillomania or as it is most commonly known Trich, since I was around 15 years old. I started self harming and hair pulling as an escape from the misery of being badly bullied by a couple of kids at my High School… I was too scared to stand up for myself or to tell my parents or friends what was happening to me… it was really horrible, and at one stage I ran away and tried to hitch a train ride back home 100 kilometres away… very long story, but I will do a video on it one day. I still pull hairs to this day, but my Trich is nothing compared to what some people do, by pulling out all of their hairs from the head, eye lashes etc

Trichotillomania mainly affects girls and women, it is rare in boys and men.

My Trich sometimes drives me crazy, I can try and pull out one tiny minute hair for up to a week straight for many many many hours… using my tongue to locate the hair, then pulling it out with either my teeth or some swiss army knife tweezers. In regards to locating the hair, it is amazing hour sensitive the tongue is, I can feel the most tiniest hair with my tongue. I also hold my fingers and thumbs up to bright lights to locate the hairs.

If I cannot pull the hair out, that is when I start cutting into my fingers to pull the hair follicle out… it really does get that bad, it is extremely addictive and my fingers and thumbs have the scars to prove it.

Trichotillomania is my way of escaping from stress, worry, traumatic memories of the past and any negative thoughts that I may be experiencing at any given time … most of the time I am not even aware of that I am doing it.

The pain I feel is actually a really good pain.. that is the worst thing about it and that is why Trichotillomania is classed as self harming.

In regards to my two operations I had, well I faked illness basically just to escape the nightmarish bullying I was experiencing, and to get days off school etc and the doctor took advantage of me for the money for the two operations, so it was a win win situation for me and for the doctor.

I faked sickness heaps of times just to get a lot of days off school and some sympathy and attention! I was so sad and lonely and felt as though I had no one to turn to during this awful time.

I had a cyst removed from the side of my neck and a lymph node removed from my groin when I was around 16.

The cyst scar from my neck made the bullying worse, then I was called nasty names like scar neck and Frankenstein …lol funny, but it really hurt…. this bullying affected for from 13 and the scars both physical and mental remain with me to this day… revealing my dark inner secrets helps me heal from these wounds!

I was still pretty popular at school with the boarding school kids and good at all sports etc, but this awful bullying took away all my confidence, my trust and so much more in people… I will never truly heal from these experiences… so please if you face the same or similar form of bullying or harassment… you must stand up for yourself! Or it will and can tear your life apart … for a lifetime!

I really loved the Narrogin Boarding School, I probably had the best mates I had ever had in my life, and I had the biggest crushes on a few girls I ever had… but I was just too scared and shy to tell them for fear of the possible rejection and humiliation … but overall I loved boarding away from home… most of the time… but the actual school sucked! I was just an average student … I completed Year 12 and join the Aussie Army straight away…. I could have done much better education wise had it not been for the horrible bullying I experience as a skinny teenage boy!

Please I ask you to see my other pretty personal videos on the bullying I experienced!

My Teen School Years, 1980’s, Sadistic Teachers & Bullying – My Self Harming – The End Consequences

The Only Boy In Class – My Personal Story – Verbal and Physical Bullying by School Teachers

“Rain From Nowhere” A Beautiful Poem About Depression & Anti-Suicide in Rural Australia

I just want to die – Suicide by Billy – Anti Suicide Message

My Personal Feelings of Depression & Anxiety – Why I Sometimes Disappear

Do You Suffer from Depression? PTSD? Anxiety? Why not consider taking up Metal Detecting!

Complete Playlist

Wild Bill’s “Mental as Anything” Diaries (Mental Health)

Wild Bill Being Lost in Life & Seeking Wisdom and Answers

Sneak Preview – Rubbish Dump Treasure – Found Silver Jewellery Box & Coin Stash in Old Rusty Tin

Sneak Preview – Rubbish Dump Treasure – Found Silver Jewellery Box & Coin Stash in Old Rusty Tin

Day 12 – So Much Scrap Metal, I Can’t Close My Trailer Door! – One More Scrapping Day Left

Day 12 – So Much Scrap Metal, I Can’t Close My Trailer Door! – One More Scrapping Day Left

Scrapping Metal

Scrap Metal Tips

Billy’s Scrap Metal Roadtrips

Cashing in My Scrap Metal For Cold Hard Cash – Paying Off My Bill’s!

Scrap Metal Thieves Caught Red Handed – Scout Guard Trail Camera

Day 10 – Scrapping to Pay Out My Last Debts – What I’ve Scrapped in 10 Days!

Day 11 – Scrapping The Good Metal to Survive – Truck n’ Trailer Fully Loaded … Nearly!

Day 11 – Scrapping The Good Metal to Survive – Truck n’ Trailer Fully Loaded … Nearly!

Scrapping Metal

Scrap Metal Tips

Billy’s Scrap Metal Roadtrips

Scrap Metal Thieves Caught Red Handed – Scout Guard Trail Camera

Day 10 – Scrapping to Pay Out My Last Debts – What I’ve Scrapped in 10 Days!

Wicked Wild Bill’s 10 Weeks Ex-Zombie Update “Throwing Away My Anti Depressant Medication Effexor “

Wicked Wild Bill’s 10 Weeks Ex-Zombie Update “Throwing Away My Anti Depressant Medication Effexor ”

I just want to die – Suicide by Billy – Anti Suicide Message

“Rain From Nowhere” A Beautiful Poem About Depression & Anti-Suicide in Rural Australia

Other Videos on Quitting Effexor
https://www.youtube.com/user/LostTreasureComAU/search?query=effexor

See Wild Bill’s “Mental as Anything” Diaries (Mental Health)

My Dreadlock Journey

Day 10 – Scrapping to Pay Out My Last Debts – What I’ve Scrapped in 10 Days!

Day 10 – Scrapping to Pay Out My Last Debts – What I’ve Scrapped in 10 Days!

Scrapping Metal

Scrap Metal Tips

Billy’s Scrap Metal Roadtrips

Scrap Metal Thieves Caught Red Handed – Scout Guard Trail Camera

Day 10 – Scrapping to Pay Out My Last Debts – What I’ve Scrapped in 10 Days!

Day 8 & 9 – Scrapping to Survive in Today’s Rip Off World – Brass Pipe Tips

Day 8 & 9 – Scrapping to Survive in Today’s Rip Off World – Brass Pipe Tips

Scrapping Metal

Scrap Metal Tips

Billy’s Scrap Metal Roadtrips

Scrap Metal Thieves Caught Red Handed – Scout Guard Trail Camera

Local Shire Caught Dumping Asbestos? Deadly Acid! They Give Me Some Nice Presents! ANTIQUE & RETRO!

Local Shire Caught Dumping Asbestos? Deadly Acid! They Give Me Some Nice Presents! ANTIQUE & RETRO!

Frogs in My Garden – Rare Western Spotted Frog – Western Banjo Frog – Moaning Frog

(This video was recorded at the Contaminated Dumbleyung Rubbish Dump

Western Spotted Frog Mating Call from within the burrow to attract Females

PS: The Dumbleyung Shire buried Thousands of Litres of Toxic Oil at the Dump a couple weeks ago, this oil was suposed to have been recycled for bio-diesel etc ….lazy corrupt bastards!…video here:

Dumbleyung Shire Buries 1000L+ of Toxic Oil on Hill Contaminates Town Drinking Water 2km Below Hill?

Local Shire Dumping Asbestos and Deadly Acid? They Give Me Some Nice Presents! ANTIQUE & RETRO!

Your Child Could Die in Dumbleyung or Kukerin Shire One Day – Aluminum Phosphide Illegal Dumping

Shire of Dumbleyung, Kukerin – Exposing its Workers, the Town Residents, the Children to Deadly Chemicals, Pesticides, Asbestos – Turning a Blind Eye!

Local Shire Dumping Asbestos and Deadly Acid? They Give Me Some Nice Presents! ANTIQUE & RETRO!

Rubbish Dump Retro Finds – 1940s Chair, Old Retro Luggage Cases, Aloe Vera and More!

Rubbish Dump Retro Finds – 1940s Chair, Old Retro Luggage Cases, Aloe Vera and More!

My Awesome Stories when I was writing interesting and entertaining stories about my adventures as follows:

November 2008
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2008/11/

December 2008
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2008/12/

January 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/01/

February 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/02/

March 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/03/

April 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/04/

May 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/05/

June 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/06/

July 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/07/

August 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/08/

September 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/09/

October 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/10/

November 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/11/

December 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/12/

January 2010
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2010/01/

March 2010
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2010/03/

LostTreasure.com.au
http://www.LostTreasure.com.au
billy@westnet.com.au

Preparing for My Final Scrapping Week – Last Bank Mortgage Repayment … Touchwood!

Preparing for My Final Scrapping Week – Last Bank Mortgage Repayment … Touchwood!

Day 1 – Scrapping to Survive – Last Bank Mortgage Repayment — THANK GOD!

Day 2 – Scrapping to Survive – Last Bank Mortgage Repayment — THANK GOD!

Removing Tightly Sewn Copper Wire from Motors & Alternators

Make Money from Scrap Copper- Removing Copper Coils from Old Motors – If you want to make extra money, why not get into the scrap metal game! I like to scrap anything which has aluminum, stainless steel and copper. In this video, I show you the easy way of retrieving tightly sewn copper wire from old motors.

Preparing for My Final Scrapping Week – Last Bank Mortgage Repayment … Touchwood!

My Awesome Stories when I was writing interesting and entertaining stories about my adventures as follows:

November 2008
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2008/11/

December 2008
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2008/12/

January 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/01/

February 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/02/

March 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/03/

April 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/04/

May 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/05/

June 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/06/

July 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/07/

August 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/08/

September 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/09/

October 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/10/

November 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/11/

December 2009
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2009/12/

January 2010
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2010/01/

March 2010
http://www.losttreasure.com.au/2010/03/

LostTreasure.com.au
http://www.LostTreasure.com.au
billy@westnet.com.au